This town

This town. It's home. Or is it? 
As I am sitting here. Window open, listening to the beat of The Avett Brothers and the giggling of new freshman watching boys walk by, I wonder where do I belong? 
My room is crisp clean. Organized more than it will ever be again. Pants folded perfectly and shirts dangling above my fresh new toms that have never been worn. My bed is made with perfection. Pillows lined up and sheets straight. Mustache sign sits on the shelf looking down to the photo covered wall and neatly organized desk. My happiness calender is hanging with so little care. Tomorrow I am going to attempt to conquer campus. So much to do, and so many people in the way. Different buildings to explore, people to talk to, and things to buy. It will be a difficult process. Getting from one end of campus to the next. Swerving in between cute little families dropping their babies off for the next step in their life. 
These people, I don't know them. They don't know me. It feel so... refreshing. So new. But my heart and mind keep going back to how it used to be. 
Those people in my life made this town home. All day I have caught myself expecting the door to open and hear laughter from them. I keep expecting to get a phone call and head over to the other apartment. This town was home with them. Now, they are gone. and I am left here. 
It feel so cold. lonely, its rather loud and I feel lost. 
This town is mine. This town is home. I don't need them. They hurt me and didn't love me for me. I am going to make this town home. Without them.
 One baby step at a time. First the roommates. Get to know them, be friendly and understanding. Everyone has a past. If they were to judge me by just one conversation they would think I was a cold heartless person becuase all I could focus on was that they were not THEM. I am going to soak in Gods place. This is his town. His people. I am here, to be closer to him. One step at a time, and I can achieve this. I can achieve happiness. Let is all begin. Tomorrow morning when the sun rises and my eyes flutter open, I will be ready to take the first step. I have this. This is mine.