Sometimes I just need someone to talk to.
that understands me.
I want someone to talk to that isn't married
or that has kids. (I have a lot of friends that I talk to that are older)
Sometimes I just want someone my age to sit around and giggle with.
problem is everyone I know is getting married or is in a relationship
of some kind.
At times like now, when I am stressed and scared beyond
belief I just want someone to talk to. so then, I blog.
becuase I can just let it all out, with out worrying what
someone is going to say back.
but then when I get on here and open a new post my brain freezes.
almost like it has forgotten what I need to write.
but then I realized, I don't like unlocking those feelings.
I just want to push them away and deal with them later.
I can't write because digging deep into my fears and sorrwos
scares me. I hate feeling that way.
I hate remembering everything, or really
talking about things the way I truly feel.
Not what the other people want to hear, but what I think.
I want to let this all out. but it is so hard.
why is unleashing these feelings so hard for me?!
Im not sure but I don't like it.
I don't like that I come on to here and expect to just write
about everything I feel and then the second my hand reaches
the keyboard my heart and mind freeze.