that was fast.

I am totally over this guy.
the one who I thought I was going
to be really hurt when he came home
and married someone else.

well, here I am.
Monday morning.
the mornings I get his e-mails.
and I just don't feel love towards him .

seriously.
I don't hate him.
and I am not mad.
I think I am more annoyed.

is that a blessing that I am getting over
him on my own terms, instead of being super hurt when
he gets home?
I think yes.

anyways.
he is just a really good friend.
and I hope he will always be in
my life, as much as possible.
 but, I don't think I want to
marry him anymore.
Part of it does have to do
with the fact that he is on his mission
and so he is being so annoying about
the way he talks about everything
and relates everything EVERYTHING
to church. (good sometimes I know)

I am just so done.
honesty.
it feels great.
 no more him.
no more worrying if he is
going to come home and love me.

No more worrying how hard I am
going to have to try to get his
families approval.

no more anything.

I feel great.
like a huge weight has been
lifted off of my shoulders.
seriously.
and It is still hitting me now.
love it.

I can move on with my life.
I can move on.

I Kayla Whipple
can move on.


praise the lord.