well, lets face it.
the truth hurts.
i was basically told by
my missionary that he is going
to marry someone else.
i knew that was coming.
lots of details,
and it wasn't mean in
anyway, in fact. . .
he is the sweetest man ever.
it just isn't going to work..
yes i am sad.
i really am.
but life will go on?
right?!
more news about him.
he is now coming home July 22.
that is right, he is not extending anymore.
July 22.
that is the weirdest thing ever.
it is may, which means he will be here in
merely 2 months.
2 months and I am going
to have to watch him come home
and fall back in love with this
other girl.
can I just pretend that it was my idea
that it just wasn't going to work out?
plllease.
that way I won't look so dumb
when I tell people my missionary
is no longer my missionary.
don't judge.
at least we have became amazing,
AMAZING friends.
we can talk about anything and everything.
he understands me and is one of the best
friends anyone could ask for.
but, I guess somewhere out there
is someone I am going to marry.
and I hate the fact that I don't know
who it is.
i really do.
i hate the unknown
what if I make the wrong decision and
go to the wrong school next year
and then I don't meet the right guy?
how do I even decide where to go with my life now
because every decision depends on
where i will meet this mr. right.
just a little stressing.
a lot.
eeek.
1 comment:
Kayla, you are so young. Don't live your life looking for "Mr. Right." Live your life for yourself, improve yourself, grow yourself, build your testimony. Love yourself. Pray about what school you should go to, then go...not to find "him" but for you.
Did you know that I didn't even MEET Maris til I was 24? I don't regret one minute of those years between HS and marrieage. I didn things that girls who are married young dont get the chance to do. I went on a cruise with my friends, I traveled, I got involved in Student Government, I played, I dated, I had fun. I got my degree.
Be yourself and have fun. It will come when you are not looking...when you look for love you tend to lower your standards...keep them up and don't settle, ever.
:)
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