These cherished little girls have taught me patience, love, kindness, and more about life than I have ever imagine.

My legs were crammed to the steering wheel as the car was in park while the hot air blasted in our faces and the kids' eyes glared over from the movie that was playing on the small television hanging down. Cavet walked out and the "I knew it" smirk painted his whole face. Next thing that entered my ears was that he got the job. That second, that moment, when the air swooshed the words into my ears, my heart tingled. My body froze, and my face smiled. This is what we have all been waiting for. A promising future, a job that can lead them the right direction.
Cavet's mouth opened, and words did come out. But all I could focus on was the shock that my brain was feeling. This job is the answer to many prayers. This job is the answer to many questions and there was no way that it can be passed up.
My smile slowly melted off of my face like a snowman on the first warm day of spring. My chest hurt,I was in shock.
I pushed off the idea of them moving for as long as I can remember. The thought was trying to settle in my mind like a kid determined on getting the candy bar in the store. But my heart like the parent, not allowing it, as hard as it was trying to be achieved.
I unexpectedly tasted the salty sting of tears. My red cheeks were moistened by the drops of water escaping my eyes. I glanced over to Cavet, who was driving, made eye contact, and his eyes full of friendship towards me made my throat burn. I turned my body to the back of the van and my eyes peered to Angie's and once again the water produced at the ducts of my eyes. I blinked and one by one the signs of sadness slid down my face. Like a pine wood derby race. One after another.
Then I had the most heartbreaking moment I have ever experienced. Reese made an adorable squeaking noise and I turned and laid my eyes on the three most beautiful little girls god has place on this earth right now. Words, feelings, laughter, sadness, and every once of love filled my mind.
To many, these little girls are just sweet little blessings that melt your heart when the silence of sacrament meeting is broken with their laughter. To some, they are just little girls going through the grocery store line who will make friends with you, no matter what you do or do not look like. But to me, these girls are human beings that I love more than I have ever loved anything else in my whole entire existence, so far in this life. I love many, and don't get my wrong almost any kid that I have had a close relationship will hold a special place in my heart. But these girls have made me who I am today. These cherished little girls have taught me patience, love, kindness, and more about life than I have ever imagine.
The move isn't going to be that devastating. For heavens sake they will only be a few more hours away. It is the fact that I won't be able to see them spur of the moment. I have just barely come to the acceptance of living a whole hour away. If I had it my way, I would live in the same house as them. If I had life the way I wanted it, I would just pick my things up and start this new journey with them.
I have been told I have an extra sensitive heart, and this may be true. The thought of them growing up without me to witness by their side, honestly damages my most vital organ in my body. I will skype with them, I will visit them, and they will forever be a part of me.
But the first time Reese crawls. The time when Peyton is completely potty trained, and when McCarty learns to tie her shoes. I won't be there! Thank goodness for technology that I will be able to see their faces as often as I want. But I am already longing to have them snuggle into me and feel their love for me that no one has ever felt for me before. So innocent, so strong, and so trusting.
This will be one of the best things for that sweet family. So much strength and growing will come to happen. I am not worried at all about never seeing them or losing contact. But day by day, month by month, the girls' bond with me will slowly start to slip away. Reese will hardly get to know me like the other two have. That is so difficult for my mind to accept. I have known her, her whole entire existence! I was there just minutes after she came into the world. I have this connection and love for her that is stronger than I had ever imagined. But she is a small child. That connection is made, but will easily be forgotten and within the blink of an eye she will be older and not have Kayla in her life like McCarty and Peyton did.
These girls have taught me my most important lesson in life. They will always hold a part of my heart and even though they are moving just a few short hours away, My eyes become damp at the thought of them leaving.
I will forever thank God for letting me meet Angie the evening I did at cooking club. I will forever be thankful for the opportunity I had to spend many, many hours with them and the many more that will come, also for the opportunity to get to know them on such a personal level. There will no be goodbye, but simply, see you later!